"So this is the new year...and I don't feel any different." -Deathcab for Cutie
For the first New Year in my life, I don't feel like these words apply to me at all. In fact, I feel extremely different. When I think about how and where I started the year 2008, and how and where I ended it...it doesn't even compare.
This time last year, I was wrapped too tightly around I guy that I knew wasn't right for me. And yet, no matter how much pain, stress, and drama the two of us inflicted upon each other, I didn't want to let it go. Not necessarily for fear of losing him, but for fear of change. It wasn't until this summer that I fully realized that change was exactly what I needed.
I'm not as naieve as I was this time a year ago. I'm not as tense, I'm not as easily stressed, and I'm not as easily shaken. I am more optimistic, more loving, more open-minded, and more joyful.
The majority of these changed can be fully accredited to the absense of High School. Of course I've changed since I've started college. If I hadn't have changed, then something would be seriously wrong. But the majority of these changes have taken place beause I have allowed them to, and because I have sought after them. For the first time that I can remember, I can proudly say that I am closer to God than I was the previous year, or even the previous day. I can proudly say that I am growing and deepening in my relationship with him, and that I am trying my hardest to share his love with others. Praise God for taken broken pieces and creating beauty from the ashes! Praise God that He moves from glory to glory, and that He makes all things new! I hope to read this a year from now and be able to say that I have changed and grown even more.
Farewell, 2008. Thank you for getting me out of high school, and out of England.
Welcome, 2009. Let's be friends.
1 comment:
thank you! i try... ha.
the jacket will soon be on its way to katie as soon as i get paid. eek. sorry it's been so long!
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