Then he said to the crowd, "If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it."
Luke 9:23-24
I've felt really down lately. A combination of many little things has all accumulated to one big ball of Bummed Out. A few nights ago I was even considering transferring to another school, because I just didn't feel happy here anymore. That's when it hit me, and I felt like a selfish idiot. The reason I've felt so "unhappy" is because I been so selfish. I haven't been a servant to anyone. I haven't been showing love. I've been so concerned with school and my own well-being that I haven't even put into consideration the lives of others.
Satan knows exactly how to keep me from taking up my cross daily. He tells me lies. That I'm lonely, that I have to be perfect, that I'm always right and other are the ones to blame. That I'm doing fine on my own.
How often I forget that I've already been set free from all that. How often I forget, I'm Yours.
"In fact, Satan, here's to you: a toast with my fist, and then with my shoe! You'll regret the day that you ever messed with me, with my brothers and sisters, because we're an army you see!"
Consume me, God.
I must become less. Way less.
1 comment:
Thats so true! How funny it is that the things we think will make us worn out and needy (like being a servant) make us full and lead us to Him, while trying to take care of ourselves leads to hurt and deception.
how easily we are duped into believing that which is completely untrue.
how can i start a third sentence with the word "how" without sounding like the indians in peter pan?
anyway.
Thanks for that reminder Georgia.
it really did remind me that its not about me.
Rest in Him!
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