College is kind of like Valentine's Day, only all year long.
They should just call it Singles Awareness Years.
Everyone's getting engaged left and right, and my friends who aren't already in relationships are finding flings among eachother. Pressure is put on to find "the one," because the way most people view it, if you don't find your mate in college, you're pretty much going to be single for the rest of your life.
Lately, as I've sat by and watched friends flirt and listened to proposal stories and hear my friends talk about how they wish they had boyfriends and girlfriends, I've surprisingly found an increasing contentment of my single state. The more I continue to be a mere spectator in the world of romance, the more thankful I am to do so.
I don't want a boyfriend. I don't want a relationship unless it has great potential to lead to marriage, and right now, I haven't even met a guy here that I can call a good friend. And I'm ok with that. My ideal ways of dating and courtship are pretty weird compared to most people's, but I'm going to stick to them, because I believe they can exist.
I'm not held down by the oppression of this society's view of romance. Because I've tried to use it to fill voids in my life, and through failure I found that nothing can satisfy but God alone. No perfect man exisits...but I have found the only true Knight in Shining Armor. My soul hungers and aches for love, and it is filled by the love that I experiene with Jesus Christ. The more I desire love, the more I am filled with it. The more long to be persued, the more I find a mutual romance with Him. And the more love I am shown, the more I want to show it to others.
Do I want to be married some day? Definitely.
Will I be? Who knows.
There may or may not be a guy out there for me.
I may or may not meet him during my college years.
I may or may not already know him.
He may or may not exist.
If he does, he'll come into play when we're both ready.
Until then, I'll continue to pursue my first and only love...
We were created to love.
We were created to live.
We were created to live love.
1 comment:
mm hmm.
it's true.
I wrote something almost exactly like this in my journal last year... and God is SO faithful.
And you know what? I had multiple friends that were seniors that graduated without a boyfriend, much less being engaged - doesn't meant that life is over! That's just the "plan" that the world makes, but really it's God's plan that matters, and you never know what He will do with your life!
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