"Don't leave us in complacency, God."

I've become too comfortable.

For the past four months, I've had the great blessing of constant Christian surroundings. There was Highpoint, and there was Brookhill, and there's been Wesley and church and so on. The thought of multiple worship services in a week's time would have completely put me into shock this time a year ago. My sources were limited at home, and here they are endless.

And yet, I've become so used to the water that I don't want to get out and feel the cold air.

I've recently realized that I've become too complacent in my spiritual walk with God. Too satisfied with what I have, when I should be yearning for more. Sure, I'm growing, and I'm practicing what I preach...but what fruit am I bearing? Who is coming to know Jesus because I know Jesus? Where is my compassion for those who don't know him? Why am I not sharing my passion? Because I'm scared? Because I'm afraid of what people will think of me? Because I'm lazy? Because I'm comfortable?

I want to step out of that comfort zone; to break down that spritual Christain bubble that I've formed around myself and my Christian friends. I don't want to be satisfied. I want a desire for more. A desire for growth. A desire for a greater passion. A desire for them.

For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but one of power, love, and self-disciple.
2 Timothy 1:7

Maps of Russia excite me

Things I never expected to do in college:
1. Sleep a full 8-hours a day, including mandatory power-naps
2. Make a sandwhich on my $2,000 laptop
3. Forget that I was here to gain an education
4. Work out on a consistant, regular basis
5. Skip meals without realizing it
6. Become addicted to Diet Dr. Pepper
7. Become shamelessly reliant on Vault for 8 am classes
8. Be alone so much, yet so little
9. Spend over $300 to make football players feel good about themsevles
10. Become faithfully devoted to not a Baptist, but a Methodist-founded organization
11. Care so little about home
12. Miss home so much
13. Get along so well, and live with, a person so completely different from myself
14. Find such amazing friends within the first few weeks
15. Have no interest in finding a boyfriend
16. Yet still fall head over heels in a relationship far beyond what any boy could give me.

What I did expect to do in college:
1. Make a list of things I never expected to do in college to procrastinate studying.

Yes, I'm the girl who stunk up the 3rd floor...

This morning, I learned that my thermos is not microwaveable.

Unfortunately, I also learned about diffusion.

Sorry, guys.

I'm Excited!

It's pretty sad how happy I am to start this new "blog."
But it doesn't take much to excite me, so I guess its not so sad after all.

I've had the urge to journal several times since I've started school. I've just never gotten around to it. I used to write in a xanga that no one read, and a livejournal that random people I didn't know personally read. Xanga was getting old (I've had it since the 9th grade...), and livejournal was getting too personal, so I decided to copy my friend Sam and create a...blogthing?

I'm sure very few people will read what I write in here, but that doesn't really matter, because I don't write to impress others. I write for catharsis and entertainment and prayer and reflection.

Which brings me back to my excitement. God has done some awesome things in my life lately. Or better yet, I've finally noticed that God has done awesome things that He's been doing all along. My God is so faithful, and I'm trying my hardest to return the favor.

I've grown more in the past four months than I have at any time in my Christian walk. Reading over my most recent Xanga entries (most recent being about 7 months old), I actually felt ashamed of the person I was less than a year ago. Last year wasn't the best year for me, and I let my problems control my actions and my attitudes. Spiritually, I was not where I should have been, and therefore my reactions towards situations can from my selfishness, and were immature. Thankfully, there is always room for growth and maturity, and thought I didn't realize it at the time, it was well needed.

Perhaps that's another entry.

Reasons Why Wednesdays are Wonderful:
1. No class until noon
2. Freshman Ministry Team
3. Followed by the tradition of Taco Bell
4. And 9:06 Worship
5. Followed by the tradition of Pop-Ice
6. And preparation for Thursday's weekly World Civ. test.

Right...